My Last Post

Hey y'all! Sorry to just abandon y'all like Halle abandoned her crack baby in Losing Isaiah. I PROMISE I've been doing constructive things while in your absence. Lemme check real quick the last blog post I did.....OCTOBER!! SHEEEEEIT! Well in my defense- it was the end of October so TECHNICALLY we can say November. No? Eh- I tried. WARNING! This post will be extremely long so just get comfortable.
So what has been up with Chelle? I'll break it down in sections: Family/Friends and Lovers.

Family/ Friends:

     WELL. Thanksgiving I went to Maryland. I hadn't planned on taking the trip but the family guilted it on me saying, "It'll be the first time Granddad will have all his grandchildren at the same time." And since two of Granddad's sisters and a brother-in-law passed within a span of two months, a ray of sunshine was warranted in his life. I had fun- like I always do whenever I come home to visit. Of course there was drama. It started with my Uncle Jr's wife Trinette- but chile that is TOO much to go into. My mom was living with my 23 yr old cousin Tony in his apartment- again- too much to go into.
    For Shara's bday, me, her, Shay, Lamuriel, Kesha, and her twin sister Tasha, all went to the mountains for a weekend. It was soooooo beautiful y'all. Of course we went shopping at the outlet stores but we also went tubing which was the BEESKNEES! Do people still say that? No? Just checking.
    Carmen is still my road dawg. We don't go out during the work week as much as we used to, most of the time we're just chilling at her place. We went and got piercings and tattoos. Correction- I just got my nose pierced. She got her lip pierced and 2 tattoos. We're (me, Carmen, and Shara) planning a trip to Myrtle Beach in a couple of months for a Girls Gone Wild weekend. I know we'll be trouble. Y'all just start saving up the bond money and mailing it me now :)
   Shay and I are enrolled as full-time students at JCSU. Her major is criminology and mine, secondary education/English. The first term went very well with me getting A's in all of my classes. This term may be a bit different seeing as I have math and an online Spanish class. My brain hurts constantly. I'll be lucky to pass those two with a B and I'll settle for a C. I'm lying. I REALLY REALLY REALLY want an A.
    Shara is still looking for her full-time job. Her temp job has ended but they hired her on as part time. As extreme part-time.
    On December 31st I lost one of my fave cousins, Lynette Copper. She was the reason why I would have so much fun whenever I came home. One time I was over at my aunt's house sitting and it was my birthday. Lynette came over with her friend Sharky that I had a crush on, and two other guys and we had FUUUUUUN. Never a dull moment with her. I knew she was really popular- being a star basketball player and all- but I wasn't expecting the funeral to be held at the high school auditorium. And I was pleasantly surprised to see 2/3 of the auditorium filled with people expressing their condolences.
    When I went for Thanksgiving, my mom was living with my cousin Tony at his apartment and made it up in her mind she was divorcing Lamont, going as far as putting "single" as her facebook status. When I came back for the funeral, she was back with Lamont. A month after that her facebook status changed to "married" CHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLEEEEEE!!!!! If that woman ain't too damn much!
    My Grandma Emilie just came for a very- too- brief visit. She wasn't happy with the condition of my dad. She knew he wasn't taking care of himself and she can tell that he is unhappy with his life. She's extremely worried, especially since she lost my Uncle Chuck almost 10 years ago and my dad has survived 2 brain aneurysms. She doesn't want to bury another child. Soooo, I need to think of a plan to help the man because I don't want to bury a father.
   

LOVERS:

     Malachi is out the picture. I saw him at Wild Wing one night, like 2 or 3 months ago when Carmen and I took some guests there. He was in love with my hair and couldn't keep his hands out of it.
     Sauce moved to Cali so he can have a better chance with his music. I do miss hanging out with him but at least we get to chat on Fb occasionally.
     Steve, I kicked him to the curb. He still sends me random texts- like the one he sent me 5 in the flippin morning stating "i miss ur head game" but DAYUM. You miss it so bad that you sending those kind of messages at 5am bruh bruh? Shara's response: Where they do that at? His texts always goes unanswered. Ain't nobody stuntin that fool.
    David is back in Michigan. His divorce is final, or so I think, but I haven't heard anything from him. Twice his company came down and twice he didn't come down with them.
   Remember Loon? Thought so. I didn't either until I read some past blog posts, lol. After that crazy night, he did invite me and Shara over there for a small cookout. It was nice. It was also the last time I heard anything from him.
   So I know what question is on every one's mind: Who actually stood around? Will. SMH. Dangerous I tell ya. We still hookup, like almost every other week. It was more til Sammy came into the picture. So I'm over Will's the other night. He's high and drunk. And he's professing all kinds of things to me. How he thinks about me sometimes. How cool I am. How we're in a "special place"...and he never finished that sentence. Well actually he finished the sentence with a kiss on my thigh but he never fully processed the thought. Shara is ready for Will and I to be a couple. I am not. I am truly happy with where I am now with Will and Sammy. 
  Now before you go browsing through the blog history- thinking that I forgot to link a name on the blogroll- NO I have not mentioned Sammy before. He is a new victim and one you may not approve of. ***DEEP BREATH***  He lives in Atlanta but his job brings him to Charlotte every week. Of course we met when I checked him into the hotel. He stayed there a couple of times but his face was always in "mean mug formation" so I never initiated any flirting. One time he came up to the desk and asked about things to do in Charlotte. I told him there wasn't much, but gave him some suggestions. He actually had to check out early the next day but he called back and said: "I forgot something" "Oh brother, you shouldn't have left in such a hurry." He laughs and says,  "I forgot to get your number." WOOOOW!!! That was cute though. So of course I gave him the number. We went out to Wild Wings one night. Went to Applebee's and a movie the other night. And went to his room another night. Oh. It is sad y'all. He has a chubby wubby, lol, but his head game is definitely on point, so I contemplated keeping him around. I cemented the thought of keeping him around when he paid for my $90 hubcap without me asking him. He started taking me to the Cheesecake Factory, Maggiano's, Harper's, blah blah blah, paid for my tire when it blew out one night on 77. He's a true gentleman. He's married y'all! SMDH. I really need to start checking for wedding rings, because he says he never removes his. And I'm inclined to believe it, being how he never removes it, even while we're on 'dates' in public places, and I am quite self-involved- so I don't notice details like that.
   Buuuuuttttt...we still see each other. HEY- did I NOT just say I am selfish? And he's the sweetest guy, really. Like a couple of weeks ago I was having a bad day. You know, when you're feeling kinda down not just emotionally, but physically and spiritually as well? I told him that I wasn't going to go to class and he, of course, was all in my shit about skipping class. After I explained that if I were to go to class, I wouldn't be paying attention anyway, he offered two choices. 1: Get a hotel room where I can go and be by myself and catch up on my schoolwork and relax. or 2: Wait another hour or so for him to get off of work and we'll get a hotel on the beach and can take a nice stroll on the water. You don't even have to ASK which one I chose. No looking back every since. I know my role. I don't expect any proclamations of love or divorce and he doesn't give them. It is what it is. But I still can't help but to feel guilty. And I can't help but to wonder why. Why cheat on his wife? From the little bit he's told me (I've never asked him about his wife) we do have a lot in common. So why me? I don't know how her attitude is, but often when people cheat, they choose to do so with someone who's the complete opposite of their partner. It is a mystery, but one I don't really look forward to solving.
   As for Will, whatever happens, happens. I tried twice to hook something up, a Tuesday and a Wednesday. First time he had a valid excuse. Second time he did not. The next day he texts me asking me what I'm doing. I'm with my people, having a good ass time. I told him I was chillin. Saturday night- 2am- I get this bullshit ass text from him that reads: "Aww, u tryin 2 b mad at me? Im sorry. C thats why i dont have a girlfriend. My video games get in the way" Really? I wish I didn't text so much so I can type you guys my exact response. Instead you guys are gonna have to rely on my sometimes shoddy memory. I replied: "LMAO. Don't feel as if you have to tell me everything you're doing. It's not like we're exclusive. I just had a really busy weekend" And in all honesty I did. It started with that Thursday with the impromptu party at Carmen's. Followed by working from 3-11 and going to the club after work with Shara. (That was sooooo much fun. But why did the fugly guys all dance up on me? Ah well. Fugly guys need love too, lol) Saturday I hung out with my younger cousin Brandon and once Shara got off of work, we had a Girl's Night In, complete with pizza, wings, sweetiegoods, and LifeTime movies. Sunday I had dinner at Carmen's and went to the movies with my Ter-Bear. It was a great weekend and how DARE he try to think I was playing some kind of game! Once he makes it up in his mind that I'm obviously different from those other girls he has been with- well I don't care to think what will happen, because I've already determined that he is not boyfriend material. The boy is obviously confused because late Tuesday night (while I was passed out on my bed with a stomach virus and a fever) he calls me asking me about my whereabouts. I could barely comprehend him. (Me and Shara talk about this all the time) Have you ever been sleep and when the phone rings, just pick it up like you were wide-ass awake? It happens to me all the time. I think I just picked up because the phone was loud as hell in my ear. (Don't act like I'm the only one who doesn't sleep with her phone by her pillow) I was in the bed HURT y'all! Then he said something like- "Are you sure you're just sleeping? It sounds like you're doing something else." to which I so eloquently replied: "Fuck you talkin bout?" (again, HURT)
"You ain't with somebody are you?" "No" "Oh. I've been busy. My daughter's in town. blahblahblahblah I'm off tomorrow blahblahblahblah if you wanna get up blahblahblahblah" "Ok"   I have no idea what he said to get off the phone, or what I said in return. You know, looking back at that- that was really weird. And awkward.  But those two words best define my lackluster love life.

   Well. The reason why I spent the time typing up this lengthy post is...as you can guess from the title, this is my last post to this blog. I'm going to create another blog that's going to get more in-depth (as if this blog wasn't already pretty open) with the person who I am and who I want to be. Truth is, I'm about to be 25 and I still feel as if I'm just lost in the world sometimes, ya know? Anyway. I would like to take the time to thank all 1.75 of my devoted readers. If you are interested about reading my new blog, just email me at yumm24u@gmail.com Don't worry- that isn't the email address I put on my resume.

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